brainwash_xx

Sat, 01 Oct 2005 17:09:34 GMT

i was so sad and lost
since me and justin broke up
i didnt want to involve myself in anything

i really lost myself in those months
i found someone. who has filled that gap

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 03:08:06 GMT

i've been grounded
and really depressed
so the computer seems lame
all i do is sit around and sleep
and watch tv

im so bored with my life
tonight was the interpol concert i had to miss

i started crying thinking i wanted someone to listen to them with me
and lay with me, and cuddle with me. and kiss with me

then i cried harder remembering i had that.
the most beautiful girl chelsea smith.
shes there at interpol, and i would give anything to be there and hearing that music with her
taking it in with her
i know we're just friends
but im still in love...

im such a fuckin freak

my family from new orleans comes tomorrow.
they were in ft. worth. they might be staying with us now cause of hurricane rita

i really need a date to homecoming
i wont be online a lot so get ahold of me at
918.406.2155
only school requirement is this form to be filled out and under 21

i fancy some boys at my school
names are
cody, daniel, and tim

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 03:25:44 GMT

i just watched a independent documentary of punk by don letts

beautiful. and got me thinking again

heres a big fuck you. fuck everything that people think about me. people think im such a huge slut and i have fuckin aids and all of this sick stuff
a lot of you are so insecure with yourself you could never do the things i do. and i've heard it from girls before. i hold some peoples secrets in my palm.
im not gonna fuckin lie for you after hookin up. if you're so ashamed or did something wrong to you're girlfriend or who you love.
then you should of never fuckin did it.

fuck everything you people think. i do what makes me happy. i love being loud. i love looking different. i love standing out. making people attracted to me. people wanting to learn more
i'd do anything to be noticed. i need fuckin attention and im not afraid of admitting that.
so thank you everyone for keeping my name is your mouth. it makes me happy and satisfied.
thanks to everyone who is in such desperate need to know who i fucked last weekend.

i have a fuckin book i write all of my sexual things in. i've been around some blocks. some fuckin highways you might say.
i dont care
its my fuckin body. its my fuckin mind. i have the ability to make my own fuckin choices. something people need to come to terms with.

people need to be angry. people need to show some reaction to fuckin things going on. you cant let people walk all over you. you cant let your 'friends' do that. fuckin fight back. BE PISSED OFF. im tired of seeing these passive people who think im wrong for not liking people. im not a fuckin hippy. not everything is peace. i'll make a lot of love and some a lot of pot. but im not gonna be happy with things. and i rather show anger then saddness.
wouldnt you agree? crying all the time about things that go wrong is pointless. GET UP AND DO SOMETHING

i dont want my strong headed friends replying. cause im the same way and it will just piss us off at each other. i have my views. i can not stand bush but one of my friends, cameron, is very pro. but im not gonna fight him about it. let him have his own political views.

on terms of friends. i have little i consider friends. most of you are aqquaintences. who think you know so much about me. you dont.
and all the boys who think i like you, you're probably not my most wanted man. meaning you dont mean as much.

some guys were put on this earth to fuckin satify some of my dumb needs. and im the same to them. and i respect it.
the human body is beautiful. take off your clothes and worship it

Sat, 17 Sep 2005 19:07:32 GMT

im good with guys and im bad. last night was really good.
kinda like last weekend because chris and kyle were there.

i need a date to homecoming. i know who i want to be with me. but who knows

my hair looks so much better in person

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 20:37:30 GMT

"I'm going to die very soon. Before my 21st birthday. I won't live to be 21. I'm never gonna be old. I don't ever wanna be ugly and old. I'm an old lady now anyhow. I'm 80. There's nothing left. I've already lived a whole lifetime. I'm going out. In a blaze of glory."
- Nancy Spungen

thats exactly how i feel. completely

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 00:19:38 GMT

yea im sorry, i pretty much suck at life

you can barely see my new hair here

and i hate to say it. but i like my school friends a lot more than anyone else right now

Anticipate and evaluate What he thought And what I thought before You’re broken like me Like me before Dark place is your place I take dark drive to your place You’re staring me You’re staring with your inside eyes Knowing you, knowing me We’re deeply sorry You’re broken maybe baby Maybe it didn’t happen Maybe all of this would go away And if we’re ever young again He’ll anticipate We’ll evaluate

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 12:00:34 GMT

i really hope i make someone happy some day

i had dreams that past 2 nights about nick and justin
nick disappointed me in his
and in the one with justin, i was happier then i could ever imagine

soon i will post more art pictures, when im not sleeping. cause thats all i really do

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 01:06:36 GMT

things are going down hill
my friend is almost decapitated. but lives. but will never be able to talk again
nick is now dating his ex girlfriend, i am alone.
my parents come walking in while i cry about nick. my mom is crying and yelling at my dad, they have come back from marriage counseling.
do i smell a divorce cooking?

im looking up artists

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 22:49:16 GMT

you all will be happy to here
its over.

yes, mankind, i do not satisfy anyone.

last night i hung out with kyle and chris haney. pretty fun driving around.

and going to someones house i dont even like

and a lot of skaters.

and chinese fingers hahaha

i secretly always love my best friend kyle. even though we have problems and dont agree on certain things

on a brighter note, im getting my hair done on tuesday. cut and bleached

i also gauged my septum up to a 14. and now have balls haha

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 22:45:21 GMT

thanks guys. i need all of that last night
to realise tulsa can be good sometimes.
it was also nice to have an intelligent conversation with tommy

no one drives anymore cause of the gas

but what a nice day it is

bronwyn, katelyn, morgan, and ashley

joe and bronwyn

joe, bronwyn, katelyn, and morgan

bronwyn and joe

ashley was screaming at all the cars going by

bronwyn and katelyn

morgan and ashley

ashley

katelyn and ashley

me and ashley

terra spitting

people

bronwyn is a pimp

glenn and bronwyn

stuart and bronwyn

FUCK MAXENE

party

the amazing tree

todd and petesy

who hates me

im not kidding

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 22:11:09 GMT

things have been all over the place

i reunited with chris. but hes moving to dallas tomorrow
i just got back from hanging out with him and getting a little high
i will miss him but he has promised to visit sometimes
we were really important to each other at a time and we've realized all of things again. but aren't gonna try them

people are spreading rumors that i have aids.

i've been spending a lot of time in OKC with this amazingly special boy, nick.
hes 21 and is just about my everything right now.
i guess we're sorta dating.
its never been said
but we both like each other just hate the distance
i was with him last weekend and i plan to see him again this weekend and actually attend the agony scene/remembering never/throwdown/sinai beach show. im glad its only $12

both of me and nick

the 2 more or less immature guys that have caught my eye at school are matt and brady.
brady - i have always had a crush on him. last year he tried to make me feel like shit but he apologized late summer and we've been talking again. i think hes adorable and so kind. but he is always so busy. i'd date him in a heart beat.
matt - hes really dumb and short but im attracted to him. in a sexual friendship kinda way. im trying to work my game but hes never at school any more. oh well

things i think about

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 03:16:36 GMT

"Hardcore was an obvious mutation of 77 punk because punk popularity reached the suburbs and then all of a sudden jocks who already had short hair from the wrestling team got involved because it was supposedly an easy energy release and an excuse to fight." - kurt cobain

if anyone really knows me. i will always love 77 punk more than anything. so i kinda take this to heart. even though i do love hardcore.

_________

Sexcuse me, but what-a good is all the violence in the world unless
it is toppled with limitless sex?
Bring out the limitless sex-object and allow me,
Sexecutioner to sexplain the seriousness of this subject,
now if you all will attend to my words you will see....
I'm a naughty fellow
In fact I'm certainly not too very mellow I came to this place
to rearrange you face
Sexcellent!
So you think you are all very smart
That you know many words
All you need to know
For the rest of your life
Sexecutioner
I'm Sexecuting ya Sexecutioner
I am from France
And when you are in France,
You pull down you pants
And when you on your knees
You will do as I please
Red Rover - bend over
And let Sexy take over
_____________________

think I will back down?
you don't know me
i never back off,
cause you're my enemy.

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 18:51:21 GMT

i've never felt more alone

ps. your immaturity is sickening
my ex boyfriend decided to let me know he hates me
you cheated on me.

I...

[X] am tall
[ ] am in between
[ ] am short

[ ] am a blonde (in the front.)
[ ] am redheaded
[ ] am a brunette
[X] have black hair

[ ] have blue eyes
[ ] have brown eyes
[X] have green eyes
[ ] have hazel eyes
[ ] have grey eyes
[ ] and wear glasses
[ ] and wear contacts

[ ] have braces
[ ] have freckles
[X] have piercings
[ ] have a tattoo

[ ] have long hair
[X] have short hair
[X getting there] have mid-length hair

My nationality includes:
[ ] chinese
[ ] indian
[ ] taiwanese
[ ] japanese
[ ] hispanic
[ ] nicoya
[ ] puerto rican
[ ] chicana
[x] italian
[ ] scottish
[ ] filipino
[ ] dutch
[x]french
[x] german
[x] irish
[ ] greek
[ ] portuguese
[x] polish
[ ] korean
[ ] jamaican
[x] canadian
[ ] lithuanian
[ ] native american
[ ] russian
[ ] british
[x] danish
[ ] african
[ ] scandanavian
[ ] armenian
[ ] finnish
[X] other

My favorite color(s) is(are):
[ ] red
[x] pink
[ ] yellow
[X] black
[X] green
[ ] blue
[ ] white
[x] silver
[ ] purple
[ ] brown
[ ] orange

Some things I've done/played include:
[ ] soccer
[ ] cheerleading
[X] dancing
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] field hockey
[ ] hockey
[ ] football
[ ] softball
[ ] wrestling
[ ] gymnastics
[ ] track/cross country
[ ] basketball
[ ] baseball
[ ] golf
[X] playing in the mud
[X] playing music
[ ] hiking
[ ] kayaking
[ ] camping
[x] horseback riding
[ ] marching band

I am sometimes:
[X] annoying
[X] talkative
[X] shy
[X] funny
[x] serious
[X] bubbly
[X] spazzy
[X] fun-loving
[x] laid back
[ ] strict
[X] hyper
[X] weird

I like _____ music:
[X] rap
[ ] rock
[X] pop
[ ] country
[X] hip hop
[ ] r&b
[ ] slow jams
[ ] Christian
[ ] classical
[X] techno
[X] oldies
[X] the 80s
[X] punk
[X] metal
[ ] reggae
[X] Goth
[ ] Latin
[X] 90's Grunge
[X] musicals

The pet(s) I have is (are) a:
[ ] cat
[X] dog
[x] lizard
[ ] rat
[ ] ferret
[ ] rabbit
[ ] fish
[ ] bird
[ ] other

Clothes I like to wear are:
[x] plain t shirts
[x] sweatshirts
[x] stockings
[x] high heels
[x] boots
[x] sneakers
[X] jeans
[x] pj pants
[ ] boxers
[X] underwear
[x] dresses
[x] mini skirts
[ ] long skirts
[ ] watches
[x] necklace
[X] earrings
[ ] toe socks
[x] flip flops
[X] halter tops
[X] stilletos
[x] shorts
[X] sleeveless shirts

I like to wear my hair (in a):
[X] down
[X] ponytail
[X] pigtails
[ ] messy bun
[ ] half ponytail
[ ] scrunched/curly
[ ] bun
[ ] crimped
[X] with a bandana
[ ] French braids
[ ] lots of little braids
[ ] Gel
[ ] hat
[ ] messy hot guy hair
[X] sex hair
[x] fauxhawk

I'm mostly labeled as:
[x] goth
[ ] emo
[ ] prep
[x] punk
[ ] hippie
[ ] nerd
[ ] ditzy
[X] hyper
[ ] happy
[X] everything
[ ] I hate labels! I'm just me!!!
[X] I have no idea

I eat:
[x] dessert every night
[ ] no meat
[ ] diet stuff
[ ] healthy foods
[X] junk foods
[X] a lot of carbs
[ ] lots of meat
[ ] salad
[ ] seafood
[ ] Mountain Dew

A typical friday night:
[X] mall with your friends
[X] partying
[X] watching movies
[ ] going to the club
[X] staying home
[ ] babysitting
[X] hanging out w/ my friends
[ ] hanging out w/ your boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] working while your friends are out having fun

Currently I am:
[ ] in a relationship
[X] single and loving it
[X] crushing
[X] single and looking for someone
[ ] just broke up

Online, I use:
[X] lol
[ ] sup
[ ] =D
[ ] lmao
[ ] stfu
[ ] ty
[ ] j/k
[ ] ttyl
[ ] g2g
[ ] ^^
[ ] T_T
[ ] x_x
[ ] ^_^
[ ] o.o
[ ] x3
[ ] "LOLZOHEMGEE"
[ ] knai

I have :
[X] been kissed
[X] lied to my best friend
[X] dyed my hair
[X] dressed punk
[X] kissed a girl on the cheek
[X] lied to my parents
[X] cried in front of lots of people
[ ] went barefoot in the snow
[ ] played hockey
[X] made my own clothes

In the last 24 hours, I:
[ ] got in a fight
[X] took a shower
[ ] gave a dirty look to someone
[x] cried
[ ] went to school
[x] shopped
[ ] danced
[ ] got sick
[ ] did something I regret
[ ] ate something gross
[ ] discovered something new

At school I:
[X] run to class because I'm always late
[ ] hide in the bathroom
[ ] act smart
[ ] am hyper
[ ] am a nerd
[ ] am in band
[ ] am very popular

Right now I am:
[X] in my pjs
[ ] drinking
[ ] listening to music
[ ] watching a movie
[x] IMing someone
[ ] talking on the phone
[ ] eating
[X] finishing this survey

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 21:26:15 GMT

so
i went to okc sunday or saturay
i dont remember
and when i was fucked up i wanted to take pictures of myself
so heres the result
excuse my weirdness

drunky kisses

myspace potential?

you can kinda see mary there. and this was after i had sex : D

this was first day of school. more like 'hey, its 6 in the mornig. im not hot, the flash flushed my face out and im dead"

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 21:30:22 GMT

summer is offically over.
i slept a good 2 hours.
someone on my mind. jesus.
it was good seeing all of my girls again
though i will always feel like an outcast
1st hour is drawing and i could not understand the women. shes from taiwan or something and it was impossible. but its pretty funny cause i have it with laura, julia, jessica, and woody.
2nd hour the teacher annoyed me. its biology. so it was really quit and sitting there. the only person i really know is elise.
3rd hour is fashion merchandising. it seemed really fun. i have it with miller! which makes the world go around. and katie is in it too.
then we went to lunch which was like a good 5 minutes. so i found 4th hour with is algebra 1 and the teacher is totally chill. and of course since now im finally in algebra due to my retard self everyone in there is fucked up stoners. haha i got aram and chris fling which i could quit possibly kill him. he reminds me of this guy corey. megan h is also in there and it just makes everything really funny.
5th hour is with a mr. garrison! i have it with miller and we were hoping it was gonna be funny but its not. its lame. english will suck again
6th is with a new teacher. who hopefully will relax a little and take some stuff up her butt. and of couse another class with miller.
i love having 3 classes with her. 4 years we've been together now. haha
after school it was me, kyndall, and miller trying to fight traffic. ah the horrors. oh well.
tomorrow is a friday.
hittin up the city with my girls mary and kara.

Wed, 17 Aug 2005 19:41:41 GMT

my summer in photographs
yes, i start school tomorrow

they might be some what out of order
this summer i made the best friend ever.
katelyn. i'd spend so many days at her house
the first day out
i played with

i really liked him. but gave up. decided to go to bailey's and meet someone new

this is the day i met justin stoops. always in my mind we immediatly connected. though i even doubted inviting him to bailey's.

you'd be lying if we didn't connect.

pink eye was visited weekly

the sickly partying days

the vaporizer at justin's when the parents were gone. we had an amazing agony scene after party

i met these lovely girls. (and lori!)

the sleeve was born

these were the typical faces of the girls at rhys'

then the old apartment fell apart

a tattoo crew was born

haha this was supposed to be secret

i met lovely ryne

we discovered the biggest cricket in the world!

i made friends with terra!

had one of the best nights in the world when kids like us came through town

thats me and my best friend during some long talks

me and miller reunited

gena trying to skateboard at dylan's

the pipe took a blow : (

i met a horrible bitch who fucked me over and a lot of other people in tulsa : )

this is my other best friend before the faint!

went to sounds of the underground. this is gwar!

scotti's drunk at his house party

met this guy

ended with having to give her away

spent an evening once watching josh and justin busting their ass skateboarding

saw le tigre!

went to new orleans haha

saw bright eyes

saw the faint

i saw so many other good bands. those were just the big venues. this summer was a really big change. the first day out i had justin til late june i think. i really cared about him so a lot of stress was put on me.i did some dumb things at scotti's party resulting in fights. so i didn't party til kids like us rolled through. my last weekend i spent it in OKC. i fell in love there. made some really nice new friends. got a crush etc. im glad i made new friends this summer and i pushed a lot away. but sometimes life is better that way.

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 02:44:56 GMT

drugs are insane
i was drugged out of my mind last night
like 4 different things i think
i still havent slept
and i think i will soon
i love OKC
nick was really fuckin good
and hes so cute
and in the morning
at like 7 it was so cute. us wrestling and him talking to me while i sit on the bathroom counter

i want something simplistic.

i wanna be dreadfully skinny and drugged and in love.
its wrong i know

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 20:23:56 GMT

sorry for my hiatus
i've been busy i guess
i enrolled for school yesterday. and i start the 18th
im gonna try and do stuff right this year so i dont have to do so many extra classes to actually pass
we have to give away bella. we've only had her for 3 or 4 months. but shes changed all of our lives. we cant even look at or acknowledge ladybug with out bella seriously launching at her and trying to kill her. last night someone bit me and punctured through my fingernail. it hurts really bad still.

i've made friends everywhere.
i have dear kids like us now in orlando
wonderful nate in cali
lopez who has always been my friend in KC better be visiting me and along with alli.
myspace can introduce you to some great people
thats why i dont think i could ever get rid of it.

oh well
im gonna start frequenting livejournal a lot again.

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 06:50:39 GMT

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 00:05:52 GMT

im getting back on track
yesterday was sounds of the under ground
i dont really have any good pictures
i got in between a fight. it sucked i was trampled. i thought they were attacking daniel so i hit someone in the back of the head they hit me and through me on the ground. where my tube top fell down. and some guy pulled me out and fondled me. i was pissed.
i told jusitn and he got mad : )
we're friends now

be jealous of the bands i saw....well not all of them
clutch (Sucked), poison the well, unearth, norma jean, every time i die, throwndown, high on fire, madball, a life once lost, all that remains, devildriver, fear before the march of flames, gwar
i was out eating during opeth and strapping young lad. oh well. and left before i saw lamb of god anda chimaria. which i kinda wanted to see chimaria
gwar is fuckin amazing so be jealous. so is madball and throwdown. awesome pits during that.
good times

forgotten rebel

Mon, 04 Jul 2005 03:19:56 GMT

a lot of fights happened tonight. involving me 2 times. i know i will never be afraid. im kinda proud of myself. and dont try to say you'll kill who hurt me. i hit justin he didnt do anything. me and bronwyn faught. but we're fine. i talked to justin.
i guess we'll be friends.
i like someone a lot. and have for maybe 2-3 months. i hope something works. and im not drinking again. i puked red and faught my good friends and who i loved.
thats fucked up.
no parties i will be attending at rhys'. if you have a party not there. i will be there.
scott's was fun all in all. drama zone though. but everyone kinda dealed. this is scene life. no one can understand what tulsa is like. i hate all of you scene xanga kids who comment me sayin you know. tulsa is a completely different place. there is hardly no unity. we fight. we get fucked up. and we fuck everyone.
thats it. music has died here.
my pledge though i love them. cd release part july 15th. im going and im makin a sexy toga.
i will attend every show. cause thats the best thing to do. i will not sneak it. i will pay and support. support what started this god damn stupid scene shit

later that day - im being portrayed as the bad person in this relationship when i wasnt....i did nothing to him until last night. and i regret it so much. more than i've regretted anything. im never drinking again. if only someone could understand me. he hurt me so bad. everyone sit and think about who you love with all of your heart. think about the person you hate so much. then think about him saying. i love her. imagine that agonizing feeling. no one can understand. their trying to make me look bad by sayin i cheated. i didnt. i loved justin william stoops more than anything in my life. more than sheldon and i know none of you can comprehend me and sheldon. miller can. but you dont understand how much. i had a lot with sheldon i thought. i lost a child. it was his. that took a lot out of me. the last thing he said to me was take this condom and fuck everyone you seem. and take this ring and love someone. that hurt a lot. and its stuck in my mind. i have the note too. a lot has happened to me in the past 2 years. my virginity, the death of a child, discovery of scene, partying, punk, drugs, drama, suicide attempts, mental hospital stays

theres nothing i can do. i've changed a lot. everyone knows this. i just wanted to be taken care of for once. i've always put myself out there for people. and gotten hurt. im really nice. and i have a big heart. but people always fuck with my relationships since i gained a slut title.

what i need: i want true friends. i want a true love. i dont wanna party all the time. i dont wanna get fucked up. i dont wanna have random sex

i wanna wait a while. but im afraid when i call you in weeks you will have someone else. because all i can think about is you. i want to build a friendship. but i hear you dont even want that.

i was so in love. i cant stop crying. i dont sleep. i hardly eat. so i thought lets get fucked up. i made my worst night ever. and i didnt even cry.

Sat, 02 Jul 2005 09:08:18 GMT

i cant sleep anymore. i usually dont see the time of 4 in the morning.
but its too hard too sleep. i just watched american histoy x. and i still can only imagine hurting people.
its what i dream and thrive for now.
justin. hes shit. no one falls in love with someone you hate. i seriously can not stand anyone now.
i sit with jesica and talk about what i want to do. and laugh.
im so fucked up.
chris is back in tulsa from rehab. he wants me to come with him and do coke. im debating.
i promised i'd never support him....but i really think i will.
because i dont give a 2 shits about anyone but me.
and i wanna feel good. i wanna fly. i never wanna grow old either
these aching feelings i get every 2 months is old. im tired of all these lies.
i cant believe justin.
i almost hit him today. instead i let him hold me while i cried. then we faught. and he took back my necklace.
but he didnt want me to. because he doesnt want me to forget yet he does want me to. so i can move on.
i made him take it.
i made him walk away mad. and im gonna beat the shit out of what he cares about. audrey. shes fuckin dead to me.
justin is dead to me.
i dont believe he should of done that. i didnt think he could.
but i always thought chris was good too when i met him.

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 03:01:30 GMT

soo

justin broke up with me

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 04:46:01 GMT

im done with the scene
: D

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 08:12:50 GMT

friends are good sometimes
this is all been taken in the past 2 weks

My pledge! (treat, cash, daniel, jack)

sarah e

bailey and mallory

chelsea and cliff

chelsea, sarah e, and me

cliff and his tricks

aubrey and basile

chelsea

cliff again

and again!

dylan and elizabeth
elizabeth

cliff drinking

cliff and a close up of him and the hanger

dylan and THE SLEEVE

gena at the faint

gena and bronwyn at the faint

the girls (sarah d, bailey, porsche, margot, ashley, jessica, mary)

jonn and jens

jasmine and a picture of her suicide girls photo shoot

josh

josh and my boo

katelyn!
elizabeth and katelyn

mallory

mallory and nina

miller and bailey

rhys

rhys working!

sarah d

the tattoo crew!(david, bailey, me, elizabeth)

todd and gena at the faint

*During sex do you like...*
to be on top?	no
to be on bottom?	yea
it rough?	yea
it soft?	no
to just fuck?	yes
to make sweet love?	yes
anal, vaginal or oral?	vaginal, oral
Legs up or down?	either
Screaming and yelling?	lots
Deep moaning?	lots
Scratching?	yes
Biting?	yes
Licking?	maybe
Hair pulling?	yes
*During sex do you...*
Stay in one position?	no
Switch postions?	yes
Keep your sox on?	haha i dont wear them
Keep your shirt on?	sometimes
Only drop your pants to your knees?	no
Scream and yell?	yes
Moan?	yes
Scratch?	yes
Bite?	yes
Pull hair?	yes
Yell their name?	yes
Fantasize about the person?	yes
Fantasize about someone else?	no
Give commands?	yes
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